Denying Source: The Narcissistic Roots of Atheism & The Left-Hand Path

Sep 12, 2023

When investigating near death experience (NDE) accounts and Source/God (genderless) that is often met there, the soul experiences this personality as a field of endless unconditional love like 10,000 suns that don’t hurt the eyes or like a love 10,000 times greater than anything that can possibly be experienced as a human being on Earth.

And so where does this judgement and wrath of God depicted in Christian scripture fit into all this primordial love or Love itself which Source is?

This judgement may only appear on the surface to be God’s judgement but curiously in NDEs, it’s the individual soul who is judging one’s own self. Though we are individual souls, we are also part of Source. So one can posit that one’s God-given nature reviews our actions that are not aligned to how Source would have done them were Source in the flesh — Christ.

Yet outside of our God-given nature, one may still question due to the gift of will, why we judge ourselves at all. I propose that this is the result of having experienced the tremendous awe of Source’s infinite love stream where we are left with no other satisfactory course of action but to desire to be more like that — hence again Christ.

“Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.” (Matthew 22:37–39)

The first verse naturally leads to the second. In receiving/experiencing Source’s love, by nature, we pay it forward. To love God is to open up some space to let some of God’s infinite stream of love in. So this stream issues forth from Source to ourselves to neighbor and repeats or occurs simultaneously. Deep inside, everyone wants to be treated with love, so this is basically a theistic version of the golden rule.

Speaking from personal experience, following this golden nugget of advice leads to complete life transformation. One is “born again.”

The Most Extreme Forgetting: Atheism

When we forget that The Field (Source) is Love itself and that we only exist through That, we by proxy enter the amnesiac state of narcissism where the individual alone feels to be the only one at the center of the universe. In extreme cases, this can lead to solipsism, a severe form of narcissism.

“I fancied myself as some kind of god. […] It is a sort of disease when you consider yourself some kind of god, the creator of everything, but I feel comfortable about it now since I began to live it out.” — George Soros (LA Times, Oct 4, 2004).

When we forget Source, something else has to take its place. There is no human alive that does not put something at the center of their life. If Source is not the center, then man’s worldly phenomena will take its place such as money, fame, science, identity, sex, drugs, etc. This is the deeper meaning of “graven image.”

The first two commandments mention, “Thou shalt have no other gods before me,” and “Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image.” (Exodus 20:3–4)

Source is Source which to Muslims is Allah and to Hindus is Brahma (or the Source aspect for instance of Vishnu, Shiva, or Kali). “Other gods” is anything worshiped that is not Source.

The graven image or idolatry points to any aspect of life that puts itself before Source which can also be one’s self. Where one enthrones oneself as the highest, this is the idolatry of idolatries, and is the driving force within the dark arts — to simply go after one’s will alone —to “do what thou wilt.”

The All-About-Me Left-Hand Path

“Magick is the Science and Art of causing Change to occur in conformity with Will.” — Aleister Crowley (Liber ABA, Book 4: Magick in Theory & Practice)

Anything not grounded in Source is instead grounded in narcissism. And just as a side note, a left-hand pather’s version of Source may be the complete inversion of actual Source if they will even bow to another power in the first place. If they do acknowledge something, it may just be Lucifer or any deceiver-type entity/personality/impulse which is false light and may bestow such parasitic philosophies such as “anything goes” and “be your own god.”

“No rules” is not The Way and neither is “only rules.” Source or conduit thereof (such as Christ) is The Balance/Tao.

Prophets, holy men, and/or messiah-like figures such as Moses, Saint John the Baptist, Ramakrishna Paramahansa, or Jesus could all be viewed as magicians in their own right, emphasis on “right” for “right hand path” as they have grounded themselves in Source. Source worked through them and the results were miracles or siddhis. They caused change to occur in collaboration with God’s will, not their egoistic will.

If a magician engages in a practice that bypasses Source in order to get one’s way, they are playing God. Whether through elementals, animal spirits, angels, or demons, if the manifestation brought forth is not grounded in Tao or Truth (Source), the results will be volatile and unsustainable — in short, playing with fire.

In New Age circles it’s called manifesting (if indeed it is not grounded in Source), and so it comes with the adage “careful what you wish for.”

So many stories show what happens when we play God. We fall — Icarus, Prometheus, Lucifer. Even I have fallen painfully for my own narcissistic ways, and it’s because of that I no longer entertain much of anything that doesn’t get me closer to God. But also, having tasted just a little of Source’s unconditional love, there’s also no going back.